I think I'd like to write. More. For fun.
I'm not great at New Year's resolutions. I love the idea of them - I love a fresh start, I love thinking about ways I want to change and be better. But then I get bogged down in the details. The logistics of how I'll go about accomplishing my goals, tracking my goals, choosing the best goals puts me in paralysis. It makes it feel like I won't do it right so it won't work, so I don't start because I'm not sure how to do it right. I am in therapy, yes.
Anyhow, there's an old trend where people just choose a word to be a theme for their year (I'm about 10 years behind this curve, which is my sweet spot - 2034 or so and I'll be a huge T Swift fan). I've decided to choose a word for this year: CREATE.
I'd like to create spaces around me. That logistics paralysis I talked about? It bleeds into a lot of things. I tend to dwell in clutter because I have a hard time knowing exactly where everything should go. I love the idea of organization, but organizing things means a lot of decisions and because I might not make the right decisions about where things should go and how to make a space work for me, I have a really hard time doing it at all. High fives. I want to shift that a bit. Here's hoping the word create will give me some power.
I want to create art and delicious food. Space for people and experiences and movement.
And I want to write. It'll be a way for me to check in on this word, and checking in on this word will be a way to get me to write. It can be a creative feedback loop (instead of a paralyzing one! Love that for me.)
Welcome, dear reader!